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i am...

waiting for my hair to dry a little bit on its own before i blast it dry with hot air in this already feels-too-warm-even though the AC is set lower than normal house glad the contractor showed up after i had gotten out of the shower and was almost dressed, rather than while i was in the shower or not nearly dressed....also glad i've known him for a long, long time, so it was less awkward to yell "just a minute" from my closed bedroom door while hurrying to find shorts and t-shirt and not brushing my wet hair thrilled to have new rafters, a new roof, and a new ceiling in the dining room not thrilled to pay for the new rafters, roof, and ceiling in the dining room thrilled that it shouldn't rain inside my house again anytime soon slowly waking up after a morning nap, or moving very slowly this morning not packed or ready to go to the mountains this weekend excited to share sliding rock with sweet hubby and the friends from Chile who are visiting, as the o

i am....

listening to the roofers bang around above me so tired of not sleeping well at night, but know i am nowhere near as tired as i'll be once Peanut is born debating whether i need to eat another triple chocolate cookie or not (probably "or not", but it's likely i'll eat it anyway) excited to have a mom-car now overwhelmed by the past two weeks of my life...grandma, time at the beach with cousins, the family dog dying, new roof, new car, a wonderful woman from church dying...so many ups and downs thinking about putting away some more baby things, especially those given to us at sweet hubby's work shower on sunday night also considering putting away my target purchases from this morning -- shampoo and lotion and such to get me through the first few months of not wanting to go to the store and not wanting to describe the products i prefer in great detail to sweet hubby waiting for the contractor to tell me how much extra it will cost to have new rafter

Grandma

This is a picture, from probably 20 years ago, of my grandma. She passed away one week ago. It was a surprise, but also not a huge surprise. Grandma was a fixture throughout my childhood, teen years, young adulthood, and she was very excited about Peanut. She outlived her husband by 27 years; most of that time she lived alone, in the house they had built together when my dad was a boy. A few years ago, as her health was declining, and her driving skills were becoming more and more questionable, we helped her move into an apartment in a retirement home/assisted living/nursing home facility where seniors move in while independent and then can later be transferred throughout the facility into higher levels of care as needed. Grandma never moved from the apartment, but she did acquire round-the-clock sitters who would help her with meals and dressing and all sorts of things. She began using a walker or a wheelchair to go out. Sitting for long periods of time began to bothe

ups and downs

beginning of the week: up 1. extra day at the beach 2. yoga with mama, twice 3. normal check up for baby and me 4. lunch with mama and sister 5. plans to return to beach for 4th of july holiday 6. positive meeting with 2nd grade team turning point: about 12:30 p.m. wed. july 3 down 1. grandma (aged 96) passed away 2. rushed overnight trip to beach to clean house and pack up clothes -- less than 24 hours 3. sleepless nights 4. mangled nursing top by trying to use double needle in new sewing machine (hopefully no permanent damage to machine, only to top) 5. downpour inside dining room/leaking chimney (again), 1 hour before visitation for grandma 6. trying to find someone to put tarp on roof during rain, holiday weekend, and visitation 7. long term sub canceled for fall it's turned into a rough week. hopefully it will feel less stressful SOON.