my pink life, mi vida rosada

I went back. For whatever reason, I have decided that 5 tries is a good effort and that after 5, if I'm still finding it too awkward to want to continue, I can stop in good faith knowing that I made a decent effort. So far the benefit of going has been to get me up early on a Saturday....Not something everyone would be happy about, but since I'm typically awake early every day during the week, I think it might actually be better for my biological clock to get up early on the weekends, too. The second benefit has been to help me increase my mileage. I ran five miles yesterday for the first time since about a year ago -- so I feel proud of myself for that, and I also know that I wouldn't have increased to five miles on my own. Having someone to follow also pushes me to maintain a decent pace (my five miles were run at about 10.25), since I run pretty slow on my own. The awkwardness, though, is definitely still there. No one talked to me yesterday (really) except for my ...

curled up with the cat for a few more minutes. going to yoga with my mama tonight. giving up soda for lent? Not sure where that one came from, or how it will help me grow closer to God, but giving it a try.... sad to have wasted time after school at a mandatory meeting in which nothing I didn't already know was talked about and nothing in particular was accomplished. glad that my student teacher has two groups of kids to learn on -- one group to make mistakes, the second to fix them. And fix those mistakes, he does. Some school will be very happy to have him in the fall. still enjoying the daisies that sweet hubby surprised me with on Valentine's day. thinking really hard about the peanut-butter m&ms that I shouldn't eat before yoga. lamenting that I didn't turn on the electric blanket. surprised that the mail-person just came at 6:00pm....that's a lot later than our normal mid-afternoon delivery/pick-up. apprehensive about sweet hubby's upcoming trip to ...

My bloodwork will be checked for a thyroid problem. And I'll start taking something to make me ovulate "better", if there is such a thing. And in a few months I'll most likely have to make some sort of decision about how to best follow God's plan and my heart, all at once, when i'm afraid that maybe my heart wants something that isn't part of God's plan for me. And on this gorgeous, cold, clear, sunny day, after spending the morning at the doctor's office, all I want to do is lie in bed and wish that things were different. I wish that I could be happy, rather than jealous, when I find out that others are expecting blessings. I wish that I didn't have moments in the hallway at school where I look at my classroom full of kids and think to myself how much I really want to have one of my own. I wish that I didn't read other people's blogs and see pictures of smiling, happy kids all over the place, and read stories about how kids have do...

My running buddy, she found out about a running group. They meet on Saturday mornings at a local middle school, and run different distances according to what everyone is training for. The group belongs to a local church. My running buddy, she convinced me that we should sign up together. So we did. Three weeks ago. And that first Saturday? I had a cold. Not a huge cold, but enough of a cold not to want to get up early on Saturday and go running with a bunch of strangers while wearing leggings. The second Saturday? I had other running plans, and so did my running buddy. We helped raise funds for a local organization that provides transitional housing and services to homeless families . A whole group of us signed up together, and it was fun. At the end, someone from the running group saw our church t-shirts and invited us to join the running group. My running buddy and I admitted that we were already signed up for the group. This Saturday? I gave it a try. By myself. My runn...

Today was a grumpy day. I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, apparently, and had a hard time moving past it. Thank goodness for geometry memory games and the silly cat video at the end of the geometry review, and a computer lab available at just the right moment. There are also the little things in life, like getting to tell the second grade teacher when she asks to observe your class, that she will only be welcome as long as she can come in to observe without getting the kids riled up, since apparently she spent last year teaching them that she is their best friend, rather than how to do basic multiplication, let alone addition or subtraction. And there is something to be said for not walking out of the yoga studio when one arrives to discover a least favorite substitute waiting to teach the class, and not even texting her mother to convince her mother she'd rather stay home. We both got our yoga in and liked the sun better this time than before. She's still not my favori...

I painted an old window frame for sweet hubby to surprise him at Christmas. I was supposed to start painting the bedroom that day. I'm sure he was suspicious about why the house smelled like paint if I hadn't gotten started, but he didn't say anything. I hid the finished frame under the guest bed to wait until I could get him out of the house to wrap it and get it to my mama's, under the tree. The next day we started painting our bedroom and slept in the guest bed. I was nervous all night that he would look under the bed. After Christmas, when I told him the pictures had been under the bed the night we slept in the guest room, he said he almost looked under the bed, but didn't. What a relief. I think I need to think a little further ahead this year. Sweet hubby helped me paint our bedroom during Christmas break. Now it feels light and airy and homey and like the beach, all at once. We are both very happy with it. I'm so blessed that he doesn't mind ...

Oh, elusive time, please grace me with your presence. It would be so nice to be prepared for teaching school again. It would be so nice to remember the little things, like packing running shoes for coaching girls on the run. It would be so nice to see sweet hubby for more than breakfast each day. Oh time, elusive time, please come back to me soon.

planning to stay in my pjs all day, sniffling and sneezing and drinking lots of fluids while snuggling with the kitty. glad that I didn't have to miss a day of school for this, but a little bummed that a cold can dominate my weekend. disappointed to have signed up for a running group, only to have to miss it. hoping not to have the flu at next weekend's 5K, like I did last year . excited for my student intern to take over teaching science for a few weeks, and ready to sit on my hands and glue my lips together while he's teaching. considering watching all of downton abbey again while snuggled up on the couch today. relieved that i didn't actually have plans for this weekend, anyway. thrilled to have found an incubator and another third grade teacher who has a student who lives on a chicken farm with parents who will donate fertilized chicken eggs for us to incubate and hatch in April....I get to cancel one of my donor's choose projects ! stressed out by all of the...