my pink life, mi vida rosada

listening to the rain snuggled up with the kitty cat and a mug of vanilla chai milk thinking about my dear travel buddy on the day after her birthday, and the hard, hard year she has had , and hoping, hoping, hoping, that this year gets a little bit better for her wishing for smooth travel for roommate, who is going to visit an old friend, if the rain doesn't cancel her plans psyching myself up for yoga planning to purchase notions and get sewing, if the rain doesn't win totally wrapped up in the silly tv series " Make it or Break it " a little bit jealous of sweet hubby's ability to sleep past 7:00 a.m. on any day of the week, but especially a saturday starting week 15 of my pregnancy, and still mostly in disbelief that there is actually a little tiny baby growing in my belly enjoying the pre-Valentine's flowers sweet hubby brought home to me

Today was a long day.....LOOOOOONG day. school, supper, school open house....LOOOOOOONG day. but I think some updating is in order.... I had an appointment on Monday afternoon, which lasted for about 15 minutes after I had waited for 1.5 hours past my scheduled appointment time. I confronted the doctor about it, and he laughed, and said he was frustrated too, but that he wouldn't show up on time. When I asked him what the check-in ladies would say if I showed up 45 minutes late (like he suggested) for my next appointment, he said, "tell them I told you to". He suggested that his nurse would schedule the referral appointment for genetic counseling (and test result review) that they've been putting off scheduling, and she spoke to me personally to confirm that first thing in the morning she would be making the phone call. There were, however, a couple of really good things about the appointment. Of course, it is always amazing to hear the baby's heartbeat

I guess it's been a while. I've been....angry. Emotional. I'm blaming the hormones and my doctor's office. They get me so riled up, it is ridiculous. After my appointment tomorrow, sweet hubby and I are going to evaluate whether it is time to find a different practice or not. I have been focused on getting the results back from some prenatal testing, with the problem that the doctor's office doesn't seem to want to schedule a review of the results. It's annoying to have to call them all the time, have them not return my calls, and to give me conflicting information to what the doctors say during my appointments. It has been clouding what should be a joyous and exciting and happy season for me, because we are finally starting to make this pregnancy public and having to worry worry worry at the same time. (Regardless of the testing results, we are keeping the baby -- there is a high chance of Down syndrome -- which is not what we are hoping for, but